星期六晚上

难得星期六晚上
即使有deadline在等着我
也不想就这样浪费那宝贵的空闲
即使什么都不做 什么都不想
也不觉得浪费

短暂的歇息
能让自己在接下来的路走的更顺畅

播着自己的曲目
哼着自己喜欢的调调
手不停地被滑鼠在操控着
享受平静与自在
这星期还有什么遗憾呢。。。

want sleep but don't want sleep

kind of run out of energy every night when i get back to room
just like one of my Pooping Pigeon group mate had said:
"we see each other more hour than we spend on sleeping..."
haha, what to do...
oh, FYI, Pooping Pigeon is our FYP group name. cool leh~

animation production is basically split into THREE phase
preproduction: story, character design, concept, blah blah blah, all sort of thing before u can really process into production phase.
production: basically just start making animation, we called it 'animating'
post-production: editing, composting, sound effect, visual effect, all sort of thing before u want to show ur audience.

well, people might said:
"walao, y so piah?! u still got one year to deal with ur FYP leh..."
however, we actually lag far behind from other groups whereas they have already started their production phase long ago, while we still haven't finished our preproduction phase.

good thing is
actually our working environment is not dry at all...
we (whole batch of final year animators) own a huge space with 23" screen and high performance CPU equipped, and spacious area allowed us to do whatever we want to do...
we won't be sitting 24/7 in front of the screen..
we moving around, kacao each other, kepoh here kepoh there, to keep our mind fresh, although most of the time fail...

hmm... actually i not too sure what is the point of this blog
i just simply want to sweep my fingers around on the keyboard before i sleep.

got a few books from Popular @ Jurong East Interchange
3 for $10
cheap enough for me to anyhow grab
but, i think quite worth it, after i started reading a few pages of one of the books.

more to share
but time to sleep
bye bye world
hello dream!

MaterialisM

human are great because of dreams

well, i m not dreaming to be great,
while i m still dreaming for getting something great!
since now is one month away from my 22nd birthday,
i might want to have some wishes...
hmm.. or maybe to be exactly i shld say i want to set some goals for myself...
although i know these goals are all the MATERIALISTIC significance of a young man would have,
well... since it would make my life more 'goalful', then.. y not? haha

first of all,
Canon DSLR camera
Time to accomplish: by Dec 2011

actually i have been longing for a DSLR since year 1 study in ADM
first, it is very cool to have a huge black block that could capture history by one click.
second, the customizable function and lens could narrate a story in a more creative way.
third, cant resist the seduction of surrounding by a lot of friends who holding these big bulky memory-capture-machine going around....

well, i guess i m convincing enough to pursue this gadget based on three reasons above...
however, when i say 'pursue', i mean i gonna earn money by my own, and buy it by my own money!!!
by dec of next year, i must get one for myself!!!

second,
a Taiwan trip
Time to accomplish: June 2011

basically this goal is processing...
if nothing goes wrong, i will be probably flying off for this 'treasure island' next June.
with my AMCISA dear friends...
have been being a well bottom frog for so long, it's time for me to fly out of this region and discover the wonderful world.
Taiwan will be my first stop.
Maybe Australia will be the next, Europe or US will come after that... but not so soon to put them into my goal list now...

hmm... wat's gonna be the third...

errmm....




ohya, perhaps a fruit?!

a Macbook Pro!!
i think i might get one macbook pro after i graduate, and after i get a DSLR...

ohya, it some how remind me of this

a Sony Playstation 3
this is also another gadget ranked in the second tier...
since the graphic is getting better and better over the decade, and the price is getting lower and lower over months, so i guess i can still resist the temptation of having this...

yes, goal is always so far far far far away...
To dream is faster than to achieve...
so i m gonna have a sweet dream on my wanted list~~~

召唤自己

不知道从什么时候开始
觉得自己已经不再是以前的自己
觉得自己越来越多重性格

常常躲在自己的角落 做着自己的东西
总是落在队伍后头 参入不了话题 就索性走马看花 假装微笑

不是很喜欢自己总是用fyp来作为拒绝别人的理由
但往往真的是逼不得已
一般人大可说现在才开学 fyp还有一年的时间
一般人大可觉得我太过紧张 太过怕输
一般人大可认为我只是在找借口
然而 事实是我组的fyp真的是远远落在进度后面
我不想毕业后还要回来做fyp
不了解的人请了解
了解的人请谅解

自从没做活动后
整个人开始放纵了下来
以前总觉得自己有要职在身
做什么事情都有人在看着自己
现在无事一身轻 轻到自己都快飞掉了
开始凡是都好像无所谓的起来
也似乎越来越没主见 这个也行那个也行
任人宰割

最近也发现自己越来越无法专心沟通
说话时思绪无法专注
有时看着对方说话 心里却想着别的东西




不行
我告诉自己这样不行
我没有太多的时间了
必须重振当初向上向善的心态
从新规划自己
自己的未来也好 自己的人格也好
就把这计划当成我这个学期对自己的新期望
下个学期前 我一定要回来！！！

嘴巴是人家的
做回自己就好

谣言止于智者
传谣言乃愚者

朋友 一路顺风

现在半夜两点半了
独自一人在樟宜机场terminal 3的tcc cafe里面
用着黑色的hp laptop上网打blog听歌和朋友聊天
等着多几个小时 要送一个认识了十几年的朋友离开
刚刚还在tcc cafe里面
大庭广众下做她的卡片 还真的是头一遭

这个朋友
跟她的关系很复杂
最早可追溯到小学四年级
当时 她是全级第一名的常客
我在成绩分班制度下被排进和她同一班
没什么交集 真的很没有
只记得
我们曾被老师分配坐在一起
当时的桌子是靠墙的 并且两张并联
我被分配到里面的位子 也就是靠墙的位子
进出都学要她翘起椅子 让我进去
就有那么一次
我要回去座位
就像她借过
她啧了我一声 然后很不耐烦的翘起椅子 让我进去
哈哈 当时还小没有很生气
只是不知道为什么 就一直被我拿来讲

就这样五年级六年级过去了
我们上了同一所中学
初一初二初三相安无事没有任何交集
到了高中
我很意外的上了高二理一
我们又同班了
当时的她 不再像以前那样
给人一种高傲不可亲近的感觉
可能是她娇小的身材
特别在朋友群中受欢迎
恰巧 我搬了家
换到和她同一辆巴士
这两年 义卖 话剧表演 等活动
让我们有很多机会凑在一起
让我从新真真的认识了她
我们很聊得来 、
放学回家 在巴士上 可以侃侃而谈
我们的关系 越来越近 很多朋友也开始戏弄我们

即使毕业后 我们也一直保持联络
还发生了一些不可思议的事情

来到大学
我进了ntu 她进了nus
但还是常常联络 有时还会一起回家
大一大二大三
到现在
她要去台湾交换了
虽然不是第一次离开
但不知道为什么
这次我感觉比较强烈
希望她快点回来 甚至不想她离开
卡片里的内容 被我写到好像毕业离别在即那样
哈哈 希望不会被她嘲笑

这一辈子 能有这种十年之交真的很难得
更何况我们的关系经历过高低起伏
我曾跟她说过 不管发生什么事
我希望我们永远都是好朋友

我亲爱的朋友 祝你一路顺风

夜深了 我还不想睡

夜深了
我还不想睡
快开学了
不想那么快把一天结束掉
虽然开学后的日子可能也没太多差别
但是还是很不想经历这名义上的过度

最后一个学年
也没真真去规划自己的将来该怎样走
虽然我可以走的路选择也不多

好吧
就在这奇怪的点结束吧
眼皮越来越重了。。。