what make love a love?

sometimes, i do wonder what make love a love.

recently, a close friend asked me a question that i didn't know how to answer: why is the need to have a partner? i was really stunning for few seconds before i could speak out a word. my brain, or rather my heart, just couldn't trace out a convincing answer.

well, i also wonder how long does love take to come to an end. i seriously don't believe in 'love you forever' this kind of bullshit, although i used to believe in it. another friend shared with me that lovers are based on love; while husband and wife are based on relationship. well, honestly i still haven't fully digested it.

some random question based on one of my friend's case:

will you choose dream or love if you ONLY can choose either one?

this question is kind of one-sided if you are single. but what's the case if you were currently having a partner who forcing you to choose. perhaps more like an approach of you want money which can fulfill you everything(include love) or you want dream which might depressed you(in terms of money).

天枰坏了

因为想要让一个人笑

而使到另外一个人哭

因为过于重视一个人

而把另外一个人忽略

所以是应该站在天枰的左边还是右边

当自己成为天枰上的其中一枚棋子

自己将会发现 不知道哪里是左边 那里是右边

朋友 一路顺风

现在半夜两点半了
独自一人在樟宜机场terminal 3的tcc cafe里面
用着黑色的hp laptop上网打blog听歌和朋友聊天
等着多几个小时 要送一个认识了十几年的朋友离开
刚刚还在tcc cafe里面
大庭广众下做她的卡片 还真的是头一遭

这个朋友
跟她的关系很复杂
最早可追溯到小学四年级
当时 她是全级第一名的常客
我在成绩分班制度下被排进和她同一班
没什么交集 真的很没有
只记得
我们曾被老师分配坐在一起
当时的桌子是靠墙的 并且两张并联
我被分配到里面的位子 也就是靠墙的位子
进出都学要她翘起椅子 让我进去
就有那么一次
我要回去座位
就像她借过
她啧了我一声 然后很不耐烦的翘起椅子 让我进去
哈哈 当时还小没有很生气
只是不知道为什么 就一直被我拿来讲

就这样五年级六年级过去了
我们上了同一所中学
初一初二初三相安无事没有任何交集
到了高中
我很意外的上了高二理一
我们又同班了
当时的她 不再像以前那样
给人一种高傲不可亲近的感觉
可能是她娇小的身材
特别在朋友群中受欢迎
恰巧 我搬了家
换到和她同一辆巴士
这两年 义卖 话剧表演 等活动
让我们有很多机会凑在一起
让我从新真真的认识了她
我们很聊得来 、
放学回家 在巴士上 可以侃侃而谈
我们的关系 越来越近 很多朋友也开始戏弄我们

即使毕业后 我们也一直保持联络
还发生了一些不可思议的事情

来到大学
我进了ntu 她进了nus
但还是常常联络 有时还会一起回家
大一大二大三
到现在
她要去台湾交换了
虽然不是第一次离开
但不知道为什么
这次我感觉比较强烈
希望她快点回来 甚至不想她离开
卡片里的内容 被我写到好像毕业离别在即那样
哈哈 希望不会被她嘲笑

这一辈子 能有这种十年之交真的很难得
更何况我们的关系经历过高低起伏
我曾跟她说过 不管发生什么事
我希望我们永远都是好朋友

我亲爱的朋友 祝你一路顺风

bon voyage

haiz
学长姐们这个礼拜开开心心依依不舍的毕业了
毕业典礼的照片散布整个脸书
可惜的是
我这几天时而忙搬家时而忙FYP
得空的时候不在新加坡
在新加坡的时候又不得空
觉得没到毕业典礼上和学长姐们道别祝贺
似乎是在大学生涯上心中的一个缺口
毕竟他们曾对我百般照顾 有求必应

可是 截止现在
已经错过了四天的毕业典礼
虽说还有明后两天
可是明天还得继续冲刺fyp
那么剩下最后的一天去了
会不会顾此失彼呢？

曾经带领过我的GL SA
曾经一同奋斗的战友
曾经一同努力的朋友
希望你们毕业后能一切顺利
能够实现你们的梦想 达到你们的目标

毕业典礼不是结束
而是另一端旅程的开始
（很老套 很官方的说法 不过满正确的）
bon voyage~~~

seek for variation within constant

exhausted day

tiring routine

i wonder if this gonna be my future job?

this is definitely not my dream job, i can say

would it be more lively?

would it be more energetic? ( i think this is hard, as i am experiencing the tireness after work)

people don't really interact

people don't really speak out

people don't really communicate with others

i guess 6 of us had slowly engulfed by the silence atmosphere which enveloped the whole studio

however, frankly, we've learnt a lot

technical and attitude

we learnt dope sheet, reference editor, blah blah blah that kind of industrial workflow

we learnt how to do it fast, because we have to (we supposed to finish nearly 20 scenes by 2 weeks)

we learnt how to slack before works by having chit chat and breakfast

we learnt how to vary our constant routine by searching new lunch spot

one-and-half weeks gone

still, eight-and-half weeks ahead waiting for me...

arrgghh...

an idealism realists

i used to categorized myself in the group of idealism
i was always fascinated by those romanticism, and idealistic assumption...

however.
time changes.
human grows.(or perhaps, particularly, me)

don know since when,
i started feeling how disgusting romanticism is.
and also don know since when,
i realized there was actually some realism lying in the deep of my mind.

perhaps,
YOU are the one who make me think of this question properly.
i know i am the 'guy' u asked to not stalk YOU.
i know i am the 'guy' u hated, so do i.
u know, sometimes, i just couldnt restrain myself from concerning YOU.
it was tough (really TOUGH for me) to ignore whatever YOU posted or said.
i cherish every single word YOU told me.
i have thought over them seriously.